i feel like a lost person, spaced out, but these moments when im alone are the ones i seem to remember the most. when we used to talk you made me feel like the best person in the world, like i could conquer anything. and i did. but now i dont remember any happy moments with you. it felt like a dream, you put me in a transe and now that i want to see you again, it wont let me go back to sleep. ive spent nights staring at the ceiling ever wondering if i can go to sleep and see you again. but those nights past. and now its been 2 months. i am exhausted from chasing after you. you make me restless, i never want to be apart from you. i just want to go to sleep so bad. but now i slur my words, i cant think straight and life is just to confusing to tell the daytime from the night. all i know is its just a time i cant see you.

the abused and the abuser - i've been both

things have changed, i don't feel the same as i did before. for some reason i don't feel anything in all reality. i have lost so many people, my trust has cut its chords. i'm done, i'm over you finished me. now may i ask, why can't i be the one to love you anymore? was i just too confusing? did i scare you away? or did you think i left your side? i'm honestly surprised you stayed by mine for so long.. once someone out there in this f'd up world said "if someone forgets you, and the impact you had in their life. it was for a reason, don't force them do remember you when they never really wanted to anyways." -miaa's quote not someone elses.